What a wonderful night

My mom had a get together at her house tonight and boy was I hesitant to go. When ever I get invited out the first thing that pops in my head is "oh my, how will Melqui be?". But I decided to go. And Miguel didn't even go with me! That was huge because usually I depend on his help! But I packed up food, movies, his blanket (which goes every where) and off we went, just me and the kids.

We got to my mom's and the I put on the movie in the back room where the other kids were, gave him his food and drink and he was great the whole time!! He was dancing, and singing. AND he was actually calling the other kids to join him!! He even grabbed one girl and kissed her on the cheek!! It's was so awesome!! Then a little girl was pretending to play the piano and called Melqui to sing with her, at first I was like "will he respond?" and within a few seconds he went next to her and played. I was so happy!! The cutest was when one of the kids were trying to talk to him and Melqui's big sister Elisabeth told the girl, "oh, He doesn't understand everything, but he's ok" I LOVE that he has such great support from his siblings..I pray it stays like that forever!

Melqui really impressed me tonight!! I love him so much!!!

God is Always with me.....

When you feel like your alone, alone in this huge world, filled with confusion, wanting answers where there are none, wondering why it has to be this way, waiting for the day God takes control and fixes everything......... But if this was "perfect and fixed" then what?...well something else would have to be fixed! I don't understand why Melqui has autism, I don't understand why he's not like other 3 year olds, I don't understand why I can't fix this... But here's what I do know, Melqui needs me...he needs me to be strong, and loving, to have Patience (My God a lot of patience) and understanding of the unknown. Miguel, me and his siblings are all he has here and we have to do ALL that is necessary to help him, even when we don't have the strength to, because in those moments God is our strength and when we feel alone and worn down this picture above reminds me that we are not alone!

Cast your troubles to God and see what he can do for you.......

My beautiful 4 kids

By looking at this picture you could never tell that my lil boy has Autism. Melqui is the one with no shirt on standing to the left. He is so Beautiful! I love the way he looks straight into the camera and smiles. You wouldn''t appreciate that kind of moment unless you have been through the same journey we are on. When you have a child with a special need you tend to look at the world a completly different way. You appreciate moments that are so simple and small and make them so big! I pray to God to let me see things the way Melqui does, so that I could understand him more and walk with him in his journey.