What a wonderful night

My mom had a get together at her house tonight and boy was I hesitant to go. When ever I get invited out the first thing that pops in my head is "oh my, how will Melqui be?". But I decided to go. And Miguel didn't even go with me! That was huge because usually I depend on his help! But I packed up food, movies, his blanket (which goes every where) and off we went, just me and the kids.

We got to my mom's and the I put on the movie in the back room where the other kids were, gave him his food and drink and he was great the whole time!! He was dancing, and singing. AND he was actually calling the other kids to join him!! He even grabbed one girl and kissed her on the cheek!! It's was so awesome!! Then a little girl was pretending to play the piano and called Melqui to sing with her, at first I was like "will he respond?" and within a few seconds he went next to her and played. I was so happy!! The cutest was when one of the kids were trying to talk to him and Melqui's big sister Elisabeth told the girl, "oh, He doesn't understand everything, but he's ok" I LOVE that he has such great support from his siblings..I pray it stays like that forever!

Melqui really impressed me tonight!! I love him so much!!!

God is Always with me.....

When you feel like your alone, alone in this huge world, filled with confusion, wanting answers where there are none, wondering why it has to be this way, waiting for the day God takes control and fixes everything......... But if this was "perfect and fixed" then what?...well something else would have to be fixed! I don't understand why Melqui has autism, I don't understand why he's not like other 3 year olds, I don't understand why I can't fix this... But here's what I do know, Melqui needs me...he needs me to be strong, and loving, to have Patience (My God a lot of patience) and understanding of the unknown. Miguel, me and his siblings are all he has here and we have to do ALL that is necessary to help him, even when we don't have the strength to, because in those moments God is our strength and when we feel alone and worn down this picture above reminds me that we are not alone!

Cast your troubles to God and see what he can do for you.......

My beautiful 4 kids

By looking at this picture you could never tell that my lil boy has Autism. Melqui is the one with no shirt on standing to the left. He is so Beautiful! I love the way he looks straight into the camera and smiles. You wouldn''t appreciate that kind of moment unless you have been through the same journey we are on. When you have a child with a special need you tend to look at the world a completly different way. You appreciate moments that are so simple and small and make them so big! I pray to God to let me see things the way Melqui does, so that I could understand him more and walk with him in his journey.

Another BIG moment

Despite Melqui's behavioral problems he has always been very loving and affectionate, but tonight he really showed emotion and feeling towards his big sister.

We were all outside and the kids were running around like usual except Elisabeth started coughing really bad and spitting up a bit. Well Melqui went right up to her grabbed her arm and put his hand under her mouth (as if wanting to catch what ever comes out her mouth, which is something I do to avoid having to clean up the floor) he than tapped her back and whispered in her ear.."it's ok". How wonderful was that?!!!!! I turned to my husband and hugged him with such delight that Melqui showed that he cared for her.

He really has improved in so many areas, but it would be hard for someone who doesn't spend enough time with him to notice. I wish everyone could see this beautiful side of Melqui, But I have Faith that in due time, when the Lord allows, Melqui will be like any other child.......He gets a step closer everyday!

Great Update...A light at the end of the tunnel

Well after Melqui started Nystatin (Medicine prescribed for Yeast) we noticed that he started regressing. The very first day Melqui started this, that very night he was on HIGH speed. My husband and I actually felt bad for him because it seemed like he just couldn't control himself. Melqui just kept running back and forth and just couldn't stop. He was breathing hard and it seemed like his mind was racing faster than he was. I kept giving him the meds to see if things would improve but they only got worse.

After about a month and a half Melqui seemed to go back to square one. He just wasn't the same little guy who was improving so well. And his therapist were very concern cause they couldn't get not one decent session with him, and they started requesting that I see a doctor, but I knew what they ment they wanted me to put him on Prescription Meds for his hyperness and focus which is something I refuse for him. I'm getting Melqui better in a natural way, but I had to figure how to get him back to the way he was.

I went on to my Favorite Autism Forum and asked around. I was told to try Diflucan for the Yeast and so I did. I got the prescription immeditately, and within 2-3 days I had my baby back! He was playing with his brother and sisters more again, he was asking me for what he wanted or at least showing me what he wanted WITHOUT screaming for it! And the cutest thing was every time his little sister would fall and get hurt, he would go up to her-tap her head and say "It's O.K". And now he loves to grab your face and do Nosey (rub noses together).

But I have to say the BIGGEST WOW was on Tuesday,December 9, 2008 at around 8pm... I was outside and as I walked into my home...Melqui ran to me saying "Mama, Mama, Mama"..You could believe how fast I fell to my knees and hugged him so tight and then he said "Oooohhhh Mommy" in my ear!!!!!!!!!!! I Thanked God for that moment for it was AMAZING!!! Melqui has NEVER called me Mommy, so you could imagine how emotional I got hearing those words from him, it touched my heart in an unexplainable way!!! It's a memory that will be remembered FOREVER!!!!

Just Giving Thanks....

Well I decided to wait till after the holidays to start SCD for obvious reasons. But I just wanted to note how well Melqui has been doing. He has been taking Nystatin since Oct.18th and Cal/Mag. since Nov. 1st. I am now waiting for the delivery truck to caome and bring me his Probiotic that I ordered. I can't wait to see what this does for him.

Overall Melqui has been speaking more, trying to interact more..and at times when I feel he might not be ready for something (like a sort of outing we have) well he actually surprises me and does very good. I'm always prepared (well I try to be) with stuff at hand to keep him occupied and entertained. We went to the churches Fall Festival and it was a lot of fun, I got a little overwhelmed at the thought that Melqui might get too excited and not control himself, but I must stop thinking so negative because he was truely an angel. He acted like a big boy. And when it was time to go home, he quickly stopped what he was doing and came right along. Such a Good Boy!!!

I love Melqui with all my heart, and I am proud to have such a wonderful little boy in my life. I Thank God for him everyday and for having such an understanding family of my own.

Trying SCD recipes

Well these days have been good. We are eventually going to do SCD but before i do it completely I have been trying a couple of SCD foods to see if Melqui will accept them. This is a strict diet at first but it's so worth it! Melqui's stool test came back with high levels of ALL BAD bacteria in his belly and high levels of yeast. SCD is the answer to fixing that! He has been taking Nystatin liquid for yeast and soon will start a Probiotic that will put the "good" bacteria in his body. You see we all have bacteria in our bodies, good and bad..but it has to be balanced and Melqui obviously isn't balanced. So to get rid of the bad bacteria and yeast we must not feed him any foods that help the "bad" bacterias grow more and more, so SCD will take away those "forbidden" foods and make those "bad" bacteria and yeast die off. Sounds weird? well it works, just ask the families that have seen wonders with their child! Melqui falls right in to perfectly, this is for him!

I've tried making chicken pancakes and he liked it and I made a regular egg omelet (which he never ate eggs before) and he loved it. So I'm confident that SCD will go well, as long as I found just a few SCD food items that he liked we are at a great start, I'm SO EXCITED! everyday we are getting closer to seeing a bigger and greater improvement. I Love My Baby and would do anything for him.

Remember to always keep us in prayer!